I Love You, Kismet

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Kismet’s Wonderful Life Video

We know when we make the decision to bring a pet into our lives that we are making a commitment for the rest of that animal’s (or our) life.  And given that dogs and cats live significantly shorter lives than we do, we are almost guaranteed to have to say goodbye at some point. This week, I said my final farewell to Kismet, my cherished Tibetan Terrier whom I rescued 15 years ago when he was a feisty, frolicky one year old. To see his story, go HERE. DSC02687 Even as a youngster, Kismet was an old soul. With deep, dark, wisdom-soaked eyes, he could reach into the depths of your soul with the intensity of a deity explaining life’s meaning. With Kismet’s unbreaking stare, it was his disciple that unwittingly looked away first. He often seemed deep in thought, and I wished I could go inside his head to share his ponderings. It was because of the expression on his face that Jeff and I dubbed him our “serious little man.”

Explaining the Meaning of Life

Explaining the Meaning of Life

But for all his intenseness, Kismet portrayed joy with equal zeal. He ran with gusto, barked like a freight train and licked like a child savoring an ice cream cone. It was not only Jeff and me he licked. Perfect strangers were often the recipients of his slatherings, as well. Our running joke was “Kismet can’t handle his licker.”

Of the things he loved, Kismet especially adored a good butt-rub. He would drop down on his forelegs, rear-end raised in the air, and playfully growl until someone scratched his “sweet-spot” just above his tail. People often misunderstood this posturing until they were told what he was requesting, but when they obliged him, they had a friend for life. Kizzy also loved boat rides, and always claimed his spot at the front of the bow, ears blowing in the wind. His joy was a sight to behold.

He was my protector, and if he sensed ill-will in anyone, he did his best to hold them at bay. He never (well, once) bit anyone, but his bark was enough to ward off evil-doers. He was protective of his sister, Roxie, as well, and once shielded her from a pack of curious dogs at a Doggy Day-Care.

Camping

Camping

Chillin'

Chillin’

Kismet had his share of medical traumas, and underwent not one but three surgeries for torn knee ligaments. He was also an unwitting victim of Rimadyl toxicity (He nearly died, but emergency vets and $6000 healed him). Clearly, it was not his time, and he bounded back from each ordeal ready to take on the world once again. But in time, Kismet grew tired. The delight disappeared from his once-shining eyes. The prance in his gait was reduced to an amble, and he preferred the escape of sleep to life explorations. He no longer could do what brought him joy, and together, we made the decision that his time in this world, in my world, had come to an end. kismet   For all his silliness, depth, loyalty and his love, Kismet was, first and foremost, my best friend.  He helped me at a time that I thought I couldn’t go on any longer. And in the end, it was my duty, my obligation, to help him cross the rainbow bridge, where he could once again frolic in the sun, free of pain and disease.  He made his transition with the help of a gentle, caring vet, peacefully at home, in my lap, surrounded by Jeff, Roxie and Chance. I love you Kismet. You will forever hold a special place in my heart.  I’ll see you on the other side, Little Man.

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The Boat

Three years ago, HK and I began to explore our options for the future. What possibilities are there for our second half of life? So he quit his job, we bought a camper, and took off on a soul-searching, life-changing adventure. We enjoyed traveling around the country, visiting national parks, and making … Continue reading

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Washington, DC in a Day

HK, the 3 Pups and I are spending several weeks in Annapolis while we move closer to our goal of purchasing a sailboat and finding a new place to call “home”. This weekend, we got up early, took the pups for a quick walk, and headed the 40-minutes to Washington … Continue reading

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Happy Anniversary to Chance!!

  Chance Chance here. Guess what day today is? It is my 4-Year Anniversary of being rescued by Mommy and Diddy! One Dark and Dreary day in April, a nice lady named Pat Thomas over at Photophetish saw me and my homey on the side of the road near Atlanta. She … Continue reading

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The Adventure Awaits

HK and I have been discussing our “next adventure” in life for a few years now. We knew it would involve travel, and moving on, but in what capacity-we weren’t sure. About 4 years ago we bought a pop-up trailer that we named The Pup-Up, and took her, along with … Continue reading

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Mom’s Celebration of Life Party

After a long hiatus from my blog, I’ve decided it’s time to come back and write. So much has been going on for the past 4 months that I have felt overwhelmed by emotions, duties, obligations and just plain fear. Last weekend we held a celebration of life for Mom, … Continue reading

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Dear Mom

Mom

Mom

Dear Mom,

It has been a week since you left this existence to enter into another life.

Oh how I miss you.  How many times have I picked up the phone to tell you something funny that just happened, a great score I made while shopping, or the movie that just moved me.   I want to call you, but I know you won’t answer. Dad will pick up the phone, and I try, unsuccessfully, to relate to him, the purpose for my call. He just doesn’t “get” the thrill of a new pair of boots for 40% off.  That is “our” score. Ours. Yours and mine, what we clink our glasses to at dinner. Score!

I think about you all the time. Even in my deepest sleep. Two nights after you died, in the middle of a dream, you appeared in front of me, and stroked my cheek, twice, as if to tell me “Do Not Cry—It’s All Good”, and then you rose back into the light.

I have so many questions for you. Could you feel my love? Were you at peace? Did you know you were dying? Did you believe that we would all be OK once you passed?

I can tell you this, Momma, that although we had those “Mom and Daughter” battles during my tumultuous teens, I am forever grateful for the months of truly bonding during your illness. Looking through endless pictures spanning your youth to my adulthood, we commemorated the past, lived in the moment, and speculated on the future. Those moments are forever held in my heart.

When you realized just how sick you were, that you would never walk again, I climbed into bed with you and we held each other and cried. We kissed and hugged every day. And “I Love You’” was a constant reminder of any love left unsaid in years passed.  I now have a permanent reminder- a tattoo- to “breathe”, in your honor. In LOVE for you.

I want to share this video with you. I find myself watching it often, singing it loudly, sending it to you with all my love. I love you, Momma. I love you.
To you, I release this prayer, this song , this love. And so it is.

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